Your Control? No. Mine.

You held the decision and you thought it was all good. Then the decision got bigger. the whole idea of it got larger and larger and larger. Now you can't handle it. Pressure all around. Now YOU can't control what you thought you had so much power over. Its out of your hands. Surprise. didn't see that coming did you.

People need to realize that they can't play every card in a game, theres an oposition as well. ever stop to wonder when you've let it grow out of your hands?

Bleeding. Weeping. Wishing every breath was my last. I was filled with so much joy. so much hope and exitment for the time to come where i could be the one who made the decisions. And all it took was one little set back to put me in place. You had to push me. You had to decide I couldn't handle it. That it wasn't worth the risk to let me make a decision for myself. You let me die here. becuase of you my friend. my blood is gone. at the root of my sword you let him leave me. With my words. Through my soul and YOUR hate.

i'm not going to sum that one up. That can mean something to everyone. not one thing for everyone and i want you to dwell on something your heart tells you from reading it. for me? I regret alot in my life. Dont' let someone get hurt for a matter you don't think you can control. Don't throw it out the window in confusion.